13 09, 2015

I Am Not Built For The Streets

2020-11-11T15:25:48-08:00September 13th, 2015|Early Sobriety, Recovery Stories|2 Comments

He wasn’t meant to live on the streets. He was raised in an upper-middle class family. He grew up in a nice home and he had nice things. He is gifted with wonderful talents. He sings beautiful melodies with a deep baritone voice. He writes his own lyrics—thought-provoking and soulful stories set to his original tracks. He is an artist and words are his medium. He went to college on a baseball scholarship. Boy, could he pitch! Did I mention that he is talented? An athlete, an intellectual, an artist. He also is a loner. He loves philosophy and gets frustrated with the mundane. He is brilliant and recites verses out of the Bible as well as studies the fundamentals of various other religious beliefs. He loves nature and animals. He is vegan and literally will not kill an ant or any other living creature. And, did I mention that [...]

26 07, 2015

Okay is Enough…Abiding Joy in Recovery

2015-07-27T01:51:07-08:00July 26th, 2015|Joyful Recovery, Recovery Stories|2 Comments

Life in Recovery according to Kellyann. Simply being in the 6:45 Shark Island meeting on a Thursday morning..... The raw shares of open heartedness are touching; the laughter makes me feel lighter and happy to be an alcoholic with solution, the connection of mind, body, spirit, and soul...emotionally and physically are stunning, and I'm so relieved over and over again how blessed I am to be okay, just okay. The middle path - not too elated, not depressed, simply filled with abiding joy.

27 05, 2015

Look for the Light

2015-07-26T22:02:26-08:00May 27th, 2015|Early Sobriety, Faith, Recovery Stories|0 Comments

I'm sitting in traffic on Pacific Coast Highway gazing at the ocean and remembering the dark days that came with the city of Santa Monica from 2010 to 2012. I loved it here during that time. I was a tiny little speck among millions of people. No one knew my name, and I could slip into any one of thousands of liquor stores that are on every corner in Los Angeles. I was anonymous and could dive into my oblivion, and then spend my nights at that wretched apartment that sat high above the Pacific Ocean  and overlooked the Santa Monica Pier. It was such a dichotomy. A beautiful view from a cluttered, dark mess. And there I would stand, looking out of the window with my best friend vodka and I would think how great life was. I enjoyed being unknown in my last years of drinking, so I [...]

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